Ad ten days i din update my blog. But i really don't have time to update it. Busy with homework and tuition. I feel tire of being left out. People seem like don't wan 2 talk 2 me. Maybe they feel tat i am boring and not fun at all or maybe i think too much. A friend of mine told me tat all pieces are like tat, but i don't trust this kind of nonsense. I think tat a person's personalities are developed by their parents. Tat means different person has different personalities as their environmental factors (parents) are different. For example my friend who is the same birthday with me is totally different from me. We din even have any common personalities. And i also feel bored with the life i have now. Always study and no relaxation. Although people always say tat when we decided to enter form six, we must study hard. But we r human too. We also need to relax sometime. Life is not just about study and working. I like study smart but not hard and i also like free time (alone time) but not scheduled life. Teachers always say form six need 2 have a schedule 4 study, but i din actually follow what they said. I study according to my mood. If i really no mood, i won't force myself to study. Although i know this is not right, but i wan good result without study hard. LAZY.

Today the drama competition held at my school (STAD) finally ended and my team did not win. I am a bit disappointed but already past. Today as i act, i really want to cry but i can't. Don't know why after the competition only i started to feel like crying. This was most probably the last time i can join this kind of competition. I really hope that my team can win because it was the last time. U know how sad i am when i knew my team did not win. But i can't just ignore that other teams were better. So i just accept the fact that my team lost. I still feel that i can't mix with friends that are same class with me now. Still have wall among us. A wall that can never be broken through. I feel sad nowadays because it seems like no body appreciate for what i had done for them. Even the most basic words like "thank you" also did not say. My request is very easy to achieve. Isn't it? I just want people to appreciate me. Is that so hard just to say thank you? I don't want to feel like people are using me just because they think that i'm stupid and kind. Can easily do things for them. I'm human. I got feelings too, u know?. So, please stop doing that! Or else i will be suffering from mental problems. Maybe i'm little bit too sensitive. I should let go of my anger and try to be happy.