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I feel complicated about my feelings towards my friends. Although i feel disgust about her, but don't know why i feel angry when she asked me about whether my best friend will go out with me or not on Sunday (30th of Nov). She want somebody to accompany her during her lunch break, but definitely not me. All she cares about is my best friend. They always SMS each other and told each jokes and special news. This made me feel like I'm a toad that live in a well. Everything they said i can't get it.

Me and My Friends

Already one week i din go out with my friend. I feel weird when i go out with them. I need some time to make up our relationships. The last time i went out with them was Sunday, 30th of Nov. We watched movie together. The movie that we watched was "Twilight". This was the first time i watched "Twilight". Before we watched "Twilight", we have lunch together with another friend of mine. This friend is a "she". She used to be my good friend in Form 5. But, don't know why things started to change. I feel disgust. Maybe is my problems that i feel like that. I always think that she is going to take something that is important to me away from me. This feeling started during my class trip on December. One thing happen to my best friend during that time. My best friend is a boy and i can't tell his name inside my blog. He almost punched another person. The person jump out from the ghost house in Genting and scared my good friend. My best friend want to punch that person just for her. Although in a third person view, especially girls will feel that he is so man. But, in a good friend opinion, i don't like this. After this incident happen, i felt weird to go out together with her and my best friend. They will start to chat and i just sit beside them and do nothing at all.

My Feelings

I totally missed my tuition just for a movie. Someone will say that I'm stupid and waste money. But don't know why, i want to watch this movie again. The movie that i watched today is "Twilight". I feel very romantic. Although I'm a boy and i shouldn't say that, but i still want to mention this inside my blog. As a boy, the first feeling that i had after watching this movie was sad. I felt sad because i will never become a man like the leading gentleman-Robert Pattinson. Although in real life he is not like what he was in the movie. But i really hope that i can become what he was in the movie. The character that he acted in this movie was Edward Cullen. Edward is such protective and aggressive towards the girl he loves. I wish i can do like what he done in this movie, but is impossible as I'm not a vampire. I don't have super strength and super speed. I think most girls will like boys that are protective. Not like me. I don't know how to do housework, not like some other guys can do. I never worked before until now, although before form 6 started i have a long holiday. This is also different from other guys. I really hope that my future girlfriend can trust me as her boyfriend. I hope that i can protect and give her shield when she needs me, just like Edward.

First Time Blogging

Hello, everyone. This is the first time i created my own blog. Actually the purpose i created this blog is to relieve the stress i faced in school. So, I will treat this blog as my personal diary. I will write my own personal things inside this blog. If can please give comment on it. Thank you. I will update my blog if i have free time. I will not update my blog daily after school reopens because i got a lot of things to do, like prepare myself for STPM exam and English drama. Got many things to do.